I cried and felt so terrible inside for so long.
One day, I finally stopped the [inner] crying. Now, I know what my brief bouts of tears are about.
My heaviness isn’t as heavy, but life seems to have turned into a giant Cosmic Joke that nobody else is in on. In fact, I’m starting to feel so light, I worry I could become untethered, like an accidentally-released helium balloon.
I’m not sure if this is a joy explosion or incipient madness.