My burning “like” [it was never love] for you has frozen over; misery my only companion in the awfulness that Life by Your Side has become.
How and why did we make this colossal mistake?
I don’t think I’ll ever know, and I’m not sure that I want to.
I ONLY know I’m ready to trade:
Your “love” and “partnership” for aloneness.
Certainty for uncertainty.
Shouting for silence.
Constant conflict for calm.
Walking on eggshells for mental relaxation.
Being a disappointment for being enough.
The prison this marriage has always been for the freedom a divorce might provide.
Yes, I will fail after you.
I will fall and fail until I die.
Should I be blessed to have another 20 years,
I won’t be wasting them on you.